Reflections

I was thinking about the coming year, and reflecting on this past year, and I felt awful. It seems like I've stagnated. I remember saying how I always felt my 27th year would be a significant one. So I went back to read my post

http://mydailyserendipity.blogspot.com/2010/01/expect-it.html

And you know what? I have had a wonderful year.

Some of my goals were:

1. go back to school

I took 12 credits during the fall semester, all online and 3 of the classes were in an 8 week format. I got 1 A and 3 B's and even made the Dean's Honor Roll.

2. I wanted to be smoking hot again

that has not quite happened, but I did lose some more weight and I have gotten a lot of compliments recently on pictures and I'm feeling more like my pre-baby self. So I'll call this a half win :)

3. Get the heck out of Oklahoma.

Obviously did not do this one, but the best part is.... while I still want to move back to California or the DC area, or move to Manhattan, I am happy where we are right now. I am not miserable in Oklahoma. Danny and I have made some wonderful friends (especially the Cogerts, love them!) and I would actually be sad to move and leave my friends behind. We are planning on trying to stay here through out the rest of Danny's schooling. So while I didn't accomplish this, I got something even better, I am happy where I am.

There have been some other important changes in our life. I'm not ready to share some of them, but it has been amazing. I'm so much happier now than I thought I could be. I find that my life has more meaning and more passion.

Most importantly I have realized I am in charge of my life. No one else. I cannot wait for an external force to act upon my life. I can't just hope that things will change. I can't just dream something into being. It takes work, sometimes long, boring, and tedious work, but that is what gets the job done.

I'm looking forward to the future, and while there are always things that could be improved upon, as a whole, I am happy with my life right now. I couldn't ask for a better husband and as crazy as my kids make me sometimes, they are pretty fabulous too, and now I am in school so I will get a little break each day. They are getting older and better able to do the little things for themselves. I know it is only a matter of time before I am lamenting how old they are.

Yes my life is pretty fantastic right now and I have the ability to keep it that way.

Here is hoping that soon I will be able to be even more true to who I am, more authentic, and set an example for my kids that they can follow their dreams, no matter how old they are, no matter what path their life has been on. That is the beauty of the human experience, we make our own way, at any time. We always have a choice.

I wish you all health and happiness and the courage to follow your dreams in the new year!